Happy Birthday Brenny!! :D

Our little Brenny is fricking 27!! I am just so happy that I am apart of the whole Panic! family because their music has helped me trough so so so much! Like getting over being depressed, getting over my break up, getting over my parents divorce (which happened a couple of weeks ago), and just being there for me when I'm alone. I really hope that someday I will be able to go to one of their concerts, like seriously that would make my freaking life!!

But anyways this is also an update journal since I haven't been on since fricking november I think!! And i really really miss all of you guys! And I know and I'm sorry for all of the times that I said that I would be more active but I'm for real this time! I posted so far a couple of my drawings that I've done in art class and very soon I'm going to post a new origami!! (It's a bear ) Something else that's super duper excited that happened to me is that in January I sent in an application form for the Miss Teen Canada Globe Pageant and I FRICKING GOT ACCEPTED!!!! I'M SOOOO EXCITED!! XD It's so crazy! And it's in august so sometime then there's gonna be like some sort of popularity contest online and I'm gonna ask all of you guys to vote for me! And I know I know I know that me and my ex broke up in September and haven't talked or interacted since November but I still have feelings for him and think about him, a lot... And even dream about him... I just don't know what to do about that, it's literally driving me crazy! Like I know that deep down somewhere in his heart he's still the cute lovable guy that I really truly loved! (And still do) But on the outside I see grossness, like I don't know how to explain it but it's just sad to see him now, like he's not what he used to be And recently I found a bunch of old pictures of him and I was all like awww And plus he has a new girlfriend named Shelby!! Like WTF DUDE! No fair at all! But don't get me wrong guys I'd never make that same mistake (If ya know what I mean). And I guess if he's an ass now then he always was an ass and I was just to blind to see it. *sigh* I just makes me sad but life goes on. Guys, love sucks but still I love it. It's like a drug.. But enough of that, another thing I forgot to mention was that for the pageant I have to present a talent and I'm going to sing a song! :3 And I would really appreciate it if you guys would suggest some? I turned the great 16 in March and my party was such a fail -_- Only 3 other people showed up and one girl slept over so once everyone else left we got out the vodka and drank our minds our!! It was fricking intense! We drank a whole goddamn bottle of vodka! Omg I woke up and didn't even remember half of what happened but we recorded some of it I guess and I went on Omegle for some stupid ass reason and I fricking started flashing a bunch of people my boobs!! So like ya, shit happens I guess... Also the friend that I got drunk with got me super into 90210, it's like my life right now! And I'm so sad that I'm just about done I really really really good!! Like seriously! Ok about school.. I absolutely hate it! I am just barely passing most of my classes. I don't know it's just like I get homework and stuff to finish but I never do! I'm just not motivated at all and my school is so small and shitty and I very much dislike most of the people there (cough cough) except for like 3 people so I'm planning on going to a much much bigger school and just starting fresh and new.
Instagram guys! : @ shelbysarrazin

Well if you've survived in reading this whole thing I congratulate you!
Love you guys